Shape Shifter

God I change so much. I know we all do and it's totally a part of life, but seriously. I look at stuff that I bought a few months ago, and ask myself what I was thinking. I look at things I liked a few months ago, and think they're so not me. I look at scrapbooks/magazines/drawings/favorite-d websites from the beginning of senior year, and find nothing interesting in them anymore. Am I just a chameleon, changing myself for whatever I find cool at the moment? I guess we all do this because what attracts is us what we strive to attain or embody. I think the reason I change so much is because I am exposed to so many different kinds of people over the years. This continuous strain of people coming in and out of my life has kind of opened me up to new styles, new customs, new habits that many may not find in the fifteen mile radius that is their life.

Yeah, most of the people that I associate myself with understand this, and are not afraid to dress how they want, act how they want and do what they want, because they change too. They change just as much as I do. I'm not talking minor changes here, like your haircut, or your favorite brand of jeans; I'm talking your outlook on life. I once thought that everything had to go my way, and that if I did not get that one material posession, that my life would be over. No, but that's how crazy I was, and then everything came crashing down. I still know so many people like that, who cannot get outside of their five year old self, to understand that no, not everything has to go your way. Sorry to inform you. Yeah I change. So do so many other people, but there are others who have yet to do so. God, I never realized how different I am from last week, last month, last winter and last year. I think my changes are for the best. I think.

Wow, what did I just try to say? I hope that made some sort of sense, but I cannot focus on anything right now. I am thinking about other stuff, like school (kinda) and food and jewelry, ya know that most important things in my life minus school at this point.

Oh, and this blizzard doesn't seem to be stopping which is making it really difficult to do anything outside of the confines of my bedroom . . . and I hope you all like the new header.It took me forever to make and my fingers have paint and glue all over them from the endeavor, but it was well worth it.

Here is a picture I detailed last month that I found in Spin magazine.